The thought came to me late one night while laying in bed falling asleep. Most of my “half-awake, half-asleep musings” aren’t noteworthy, at least not in the morning when I really take the time to process them. But this thought woke me up just enough to truly consider the implications: what if you didn’t worry?
“Worry” comes quickly and easily. It is so intertwined with our everyday language that we likely worry, and talk about worrying, more than we realize.
“I’m worried about my finances.”
“I’m worried about what she’ll think of me.”
“I’m worried I’m not good enough.”
“I’m worried that I won’t get the job.”
“I’m worried we’ll be late.”
“I’m worried…” you fill in the blank.
The worry that got me thinking was that I wouldn’t be able to land enough clients to replace the monthly income of a large client with whom I chose to end a partnership. Even though I fimly believe doing so was the right decision, I was still worried about what would come next.
In January of this year, I started entertaining the idea of quitting my full-time job and launching my own content marketing business. And only five months later, in June, that’s exactly what I did… in the midst of the COVID-19 crisis and all.
One thing I’ve learned in my less-than-a-year of being on my own is that it can be tough. My business is client-based, and I rely on other people for money. When you’re employed, you can be fairly confident your paycheck is going to keep coming. But for me, a client could choose to stop my services at any time. I haven’t even worked for myself for an entire year yet and business has already ebbed and flowed; clients come and go.
This is normal and will likely not change. If I worry every time I lose a client, either by my own accord or their’s, I will spend a majority of my time worrying.
So, late one night, I asked myself, “what if I just stop worrying?”
The thought felt so profound in the moment… right up until the moment I realized that’s been God’s design all along.
“Don’t worry about anything, but pray about everything. With thankful hearts offer up your prayers and requests to God. Then, because you belong to Christ Jesus, God will bless you with peace that no one can completely understand. And this peace will control the way you think and feel” (Philippians 4:6-7, CSV).
Comforted by peace, not controlled by worry–that is God’s intention for us, for our lives. In the midst of anything and everything we have to worry about, we can choose prayer and thanksgiving and peace instead.
Whereas worry seems to come naturally–at least it does for me–prayer and thanksgiving take practice. They take choice. But it is a choice worth choosing because it is a choice that leads to peace in the midst of anything and everything.
It would make sense to worry if you didn’t know or trust God. If 2020 has taught us anything it is that life is unpredictable, uncertain, and certainly worthy of worry. But if you do know and trust God then you believe what His word says:
God is in control.
He is good.
His will is perfect.
And He has good things planned for those who love him.
So… what’s there to worry about, really?
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